Rambles of my life

Tuesday, February 28, 2006

Take Me Down to the Paradise City where the Grass is Green and the Girls are Pretty...

I wish I was Wonderwoman. Or Superwoman. Some Woman who has powers.

So many of my friends, both in real life & online, are going through rough times. This includes two of my very good friends - one's going through heartbreak, one's suffering from a friend's death. And several other friends are suffering from relationship problems, family problems, or are just feeling depressed for other reasons. And there's nothing I can do for any of them. Sure I'm here to listen, and occasionally I might be able to offer advice. But with those two closest friends, I can't change what happened in one's relationship, nor can I bring back the other's friend. I wish I could, but I can't.

I hate seeing people I love going through this. I feel so useless. It sucks. I know people say that listening helps, and I know it does, but I still wish there was more I could do :(

BTW, thanks to everyone who commented on my last post, it was much appreciated. You all gave wonderful advice, and I'm feeling quite a bit better with regards to all that stuff.

If anyone else needs me to listen, I'm always here. Despite the fact that it might sound like I hate when people rant to me, I don't - I just wish there was more I could do. But I'm always here to listen, if anyone else needs an ear (or eyes, if it's over the internet :P)

*hugs you all*

Friday, February 24, 2006

Shine on you crazy diamond

So I've found myself in a funk lately. I'm not completely depressed, but yes, funkish. Some may think of it as almost my quarter-life crisis. I'm just confused - it's really hitting me this week that I graduate in a year, and I have no idea what I want to do! I don't even know if I really want to do anything related to engineering.

I'm 22 years old, to be 23 in September. Assume I live to be 90...that's a quarter of my life gone already. 25%! That's HUGE! And who knows, it could be a bigger percentage, could be smaller (I don't know how long I'll life!) But let's assume 25%. And I feel like I haven't accomplished a damn thing in that time...ok, I've been in school for most of it, but still, I haven't achieved anything! And I have no idea where my life is going. I don't know what I want to do.

Despite the fact that I have to move every 4 months, one thing I like about coop is that I get a change every 4 months. B/c I get bored easily! I'm usually ready to go back to school at the end of the work term (actually usually about halfway through or before!) and I'm ready to go to work at the end of school (although slightly less so, since I like having all my friends around during school terms...work terms can be lonely!) And yet, I haven't had a job yet that I've absolutely LOVED, so that hasn't helped me figure out what I want to do.

Then I look at Josh, my fellow co-op student and in the class below me, and he knows exactly what he wants to do, and plans on living in Sarnia for his life, and is engaged!!! He seems to have everything totally planned out, and I'm here, clueless. While I'm not ready to settle down into anything, and am semi-afraid of committment, so I'm slightly glad I'm not too planned out, but it's frustrating to not have a clue.

Ok, so there are a few things that I might want to do. I've considered getting my bartending license for quite awhile. I'd also like to go to Japan or Korea or somewhere to teach English. Ally also mentioned the other day working at the Ontario Science Center, and I think that'd be a blast! I want to travel, I want to see things, I don't want to settle into "routine."

And yet, I do want a husband & family one day. Not yet, but some day. Which is going to cause me to enter "routine"....but then again, I guess by that time, maybe I'll be ready for that.

On a similar note, lately I'm in a funk about my single status. AND I HATE FEELING LIKE THIS!!! I generally don't mind being single, but at the same time, I see other people in relationships, and I'm jealous that I don't have anyone to share things with. And yet, I know I don't need one, and since I do graduate in a year, I can do whatever I want afterwards, and won't be held back by a guy. And yet at the same time, *sigh* I don't know...

I find since I joined the gym, I don't have enough time in the evenings. Don't get me wrong, I'm really glad I joined the gym - I feel a lot better lately b/c of it. But at the same time, it takes up a lot of time. Between that, and email/MSN/the large shitload of blogs that I read, and making dinner (there are nights that I make a good meal, but it takes a long time!) I don't have much time to do some of the other things I wanted to do this term - I have a lot of books to read, but haven't read as much as I'd like, and I haven't played guitar as often as I want, or watched movies, or cross-stitched, or do many other things. There are also days when I'm super-tired at work, and vow to get to bed earlier, but it never happens. There are days that I struggle to get to bed by 11:30pm, which is when I try to go by!

However, on the other hand, last weekend I was in Sarnia & had lots of time to do these things...same with this weekend, but Ally's also here (as is Brandon) Yet, I was bored, and didn't do as much of these things as I wanted. Those of you that know me know that I usually like to be on the go, and be with people. I stayed here for a relaxing weekend last weekend, and while it wasn't a bad weekend, I wished that I had gone somewhere. Especially since I heard about everyone else's plans, which were much more exciting than mine. I tend to get jealous easily when other people do fun things, b/c I always want to do everything! Even if I go somewhere with friends, and have a fabulous time, if I hear about other adventures that other people have, I feel slightly saddened that I didn't do that too, even though I also had a great time doing whatever I was doing.

It's weird - I can go and have a great time with friends, and be high on life during that (very rarely high on other stuff...unless it's alky :P) but I could be just super-excited & happy from that, but then I'll return home, and cool down, and that's when I get depressed, b/c I'm alone again. :S

Lately, b/c Matt & a few others read Wikipedia regularly, I've started reading the Wikipedia article of the day, which is pretty interesting :) Today I learned about the flag of Mexico! I also read up on scientology, since they were talking about Tom Cruise on the radio this morning!

I really want to go dancing...clubbing would be fun, but in particular, I want to go swing dancing again! Also, after seeing the girls win hockey the other day, I miss playing hockey :(

Speaking of which, stupid men's team. :**( On amusing news related to that, Pete left me an MSN message that said "Yea! Canada LOST!! .... oh wait, I didn't want that to happen, sorry, I'm just so used to disagreeing with you :(" LOL - brought me amusement on that sad sad day.

Despite the hockey, I'm really impressed & proud on how Canada's done so far these Olympics!! Although by the looks of it, I'm not going to win the Olympic pool at work, since I said 21 medals, but they 're already at 20, and should win a few more. Oh well...yea Canada!

I think this entry's long enough. What a very up & down entry - sorry about the ranty parts :S Have a good weekend all.

Tuesday, February 21, 2006

Soon my countdown to IRS begins!

Wowza! The class above me has IRS today, which means that it's only approximately a year until I get my ring! I say approximately since I don't know when exactly our ceremony will be, since we actually get a full reading week next year (and IRS is always on the Tuesday of that week!) It seems like I just started university - I remember my frosh week. I met TONS of people that week...some of whom I'm still friends with, and some I don't talk to. But that was a great week, lots of fun. Actually all of university's been fun, and it's really hitting me lately that in just another year, I'm almost done. There are times that I've questioned whether I'd actually make it this far, times where I've questioned if this is actually where I want to be (ok, so I still ask that all the time!) But yes, I am going to finish, and get my ring in a year. Scary thought that!

If there are any 4th years that are actually reading this, congrats on getting your ring, and hope you had a fantastic day! Heh - having been in school for IRS twice thus far, and doing security at the night events both times, I know how crazy it'll be. I definitely look forward to it in a year, but am saddened by the fact that it's only a year till I'm done.

Monday, February 20, 2006

WAHOO!!

CANADIAN WOMEN WIN HOCKEY GOLD!!!!!!!!!!!! :D :D :D

Makes me miss playing hockey even more though now... :S

I Know It's Only Rock & Roll but I Like It!

I sit here, listening to my Live Rolling Stones cd (which I just bought this past weekend) and I think about Mick Jagger. I was thinking of writing something about this after seeing him & the band perform at the Superbowl Halftime Show, but that went by the wayside. Here's a band that's been around since 1961 - that's 45 years! They're still performing, they put out a new album last year, they've been deemed the "Greatest Rock & Roll Band in History."

This caused me to go & read up on the band (thanks to the Wonderful World of Wikipedia!) and it's an interesting story. Like pretty much all other bands from that era, they've gone through their share of drug problems, but still have not split up. Yes, they've had some band member changes, but the two main ones (Mick Jagger & Keith Richards) are still there. It hasn't been easy, and it looks like there have been several times that the band may not make it, but they are still around!

Mick Jagger amazes me though. They've been around for 45 years, and he still moves with so much energy, and is so in shape for someone his age! I would think that all the travelling & drugs would take a bigger toll on the band, but no - they still rock like they're young! In 2002, Q Magazine named them as one of the "50 Bands to See Before you Die." I'm now a little bitter that I didn't go to the SARS benefit show when they were in Toronto a few years ago, or look into their tour last year...that would have been a KICKASS show! Maybe next time, when I can afford it :P

I'll say that Mick Jagger's not an overly good looking man, and he is older than my father, but somehow that energy, and the shape he's in, (laugh as you will!) makes me somewhat attracted to him, in a similar way that I'm attracted to David Bowie :P However, I will definitely try my darndest to get to one of their concerts before they call it quits!

Sunday, February 19, 2006

Frustrating weekend...but somehow I survived!

It turned out to be a frustrating weekend. Here's why:

- Canadian boys lost to the Swiss yesterday. THE SWISS!! Yes, their goalie did play really well, but the Swiss aren't exactly known for their hockey...their cheese maybe, but not hockey.

- Then they lost to Finland today. Ok, that's not quite as embarrassing - the Fins have a good team. But still, that's two days in a row. And in the second & third periods, Canada really stepped it up after a shitty first period, and had so many good chances, but just couldn't score a goal!

- tomorrow against the Czech isn't going to be easy either.

- then there's the whole story of the fire in the oven yesterday

- I did laundry today, and I had bought new jogging pants for the gym a little while ago, and washed them today - getting light blue fuzzies all over everything else!!

- my one tank top also got caught around something in the washing machine, and the spaghetti strap got all stretched out. After I dried it, it went back to normal length, but the stitching's a little frayed now. I guess I just can't wear it by itself. And yes, despite the fact that it's winter in Canada, I am washing tank tops - I never ever wear just one shirt, and a lot of the time, wear a tank top underneath whatever else I'm wearing!

On happy news, my bathroom is nice & clean. My room still is not. I also did not wake up at 9:30am this morning like I normally do on weekends, but instead got up around 12:15-12:30. Late for me, but I also went to bed at 5am!

Hopefully this won't be an indicator of how the rest of the week will be...

Late Saturday night (or early Sunday morning?) ramblings...

G'evening/morning/afternoon, whichever you wish!

Today ended up not being too bad a day, considering I was worried about being bored, since I decided to actually stay in Sarnia this weekend (and Ally wasn't here) I was a little bummed this morning, b/c everyone else seemed to have much more exciting weekend plans than I did, and I was also going to be alone all day. And for those of you that know me, I hate sitting around doing nothing on a weekend! So I was a little depressed over not going anywhere/doing anything/having people. This depressed-ness came post-hockey, pre-doing anything (oh, I was also depressed b/c the stupid Canadian men lost to the Swiss...THE SWISS OF ALL PEOPLE!! who aren't exactly well-known for their stellar hockey skills...although the goalie played well, and Canada got screwed by the overhead cameras not being in the right place, but whatever...that has nothing to do with this post!)

So, I decided to get off my sorry ass, and wandered to downtown Sarnia. Spent some time in a few places there - mainly "Cheeky Monkey" which is a really cool music store - all sorts of CDs & vinyls. Practically anything you want, and apparently, if they don't have what you want, no matter how rare it is, they will get it for you! Which is awesome! I spent awhile looking around in there, since I'd never actually been in there. Bought a live Rolling Stones album, and a magazine. Then I wandered around a few other stores, and decided it was cold, so went into the coffee shop down there. It was a very cool place - reminded me of the Sleepless Goat in Kingston, where there were a lot of very interesting people. It's one of those very open places, where they have the homosexual rainbow on the door, etc. All sorts of people in there, although I wished I would have known some of them, b/c they seemed interesting (and I'm not good at just going and meeting random people in coffee shops!) So I sat, and drank my mocha, and read my magazine. It was nice & relaxing. Then I wandered up the street a bit more, then decided to walk back to my car along the waterfront. That was fuckin cold!! I was ready to leave when I got to my car, so I decided to drive to the mall (what else was I going to do?) That was alright - lots of people, didn't really buy anything. Was going to go to the gym afterwards, but decided I was hungry, so went home for a quick snack, then to the gym, which wasn't busy at all, so that was nice! Did that, went home, made dinner.

Dinner brought on another adventure. I had bought a frozen pizza, and so I turned on the oven to heat it up. Yesterday, Rob had made cheesecake, and noticed when he took them out that there was some liquid on the bottom of the oven...no idea where it came from! But I cooked chicken a bit later in the oven last night, and no problems. However, today, when I'm heating up the oven, I had left the kitchen for a bit, then when I came back, I smelled something, and there was a small fire in the oven - this liquid was on fire! I was stunned...I turned the oven off, then I think I stood there for like 30 seconds, wondering what the hell I do. It wasn't a big fire or anything, and I was sure I could take care of it, but I was like "what if the house burns down??" And of course, I was home alone (and have been all day!) So I go into the cupboard to grab something to fill with water to throw into the oven, when the fire suddenly dies. It was smokey, and smelly, but not burning. So I turned the fan on, and decided to cook my pizza in the toaster oven, since I didn't trust turning on this oven! I also went & checked the oven every 5 minutes or so, just to make sure nothing caught on fire again! But seems to be fine. Note to self: inform Rob & Katie of this tomorrow :P

Then tonight, I watched "MIllion Dollar Baby" & other tv afterwards. Plus I had my laptop on downstairs, and I bought a cross-stitch set today, so I was working on that. Which leads me to now - 4:30am!! It definitely doesn't feel like that time, but it definitely is. I'm starting to get tired though. Amazing how I can stay up so much later on weekends, seeing as I didn't really sleep in today. That's the other shitty thing though - on weekends, I can't seem to sleep past 9:30am, so I worry about tomorrow (er, today?) that I'm going to wake up too damn early. B/c last night, I went to bed around 3am, and woke around 9:30, and was wide awake! Oh well. We'll see what happens. But yea, today wasn't as bad as it could have been. Hopefully tomorrow won't be either. I'll likely try to go to the gym again, plus the Canadians are playing Finland in the afternoon. As well, I need to clean my bathroom & bedroom sometime! And as usual, I have guitar, and books, and now a cross-stitch! So should be an ok day...plus hopefully I'll sleep a bit longer. Anyway, I'm going to dry my hair (as I took a shower right before this!) so g'nite all (or g'morning, g'evening, g'whenever you read this ;))

**EDIT: I realize after the fact that I am an idiot, for it was likely a grease fire in the oven. Had I put water on it, that wouldn't have been good, for grease+water=bad. Thank goodness it went out on its own, before my panicky self put water on it!

Friday, February 17, 2006

*sniff*

I'm a little saddened tonight.

The USA women's hockey team lost to Sweden in the semi-finals today.

Which means, that Canada won't be able to kick their ass in the final!!!!!!!!!!!!!

GO CANADA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D

Thursday, February 16, 2006

Ski Trip last weekend!

Finally the story from the ski trip to Blue Mountain last weekend - what a wonderfully kickass awesome weekend!! It causes me some pain & tiredness for a day or two after (ok, a lot of tiredness, and quite a bit of pain!) but it was worth it! I'll warn ya - it's long, but I think enjoyable!

The characters in the story (ie the people on the trip) include Glen, Grace, Archie, Kevin Ba, Kevin Br, Neil, Amber, Dan, Stan, Brendan & myself.

Friday afternoon I leave & go to London, where Glen drives his car from there. We hit Waterloo to pick up Kevin Ba, Grace & Archie. When we get to Grace & Archie's place, we put their stuff in the car, then Grace realizes she can't find her keys. They're not in their house, nor in the parking lot. Her roommates try to get into her room, and Glen says to her "Grace, I know this is going to sound retarded, but are they in your pockets?" She says no. So we determine she's either locked them in her room, or they're in her bag (which is packed in the trunk) It takes us about 45 minutes before we leave, which was a little annoying. We grab a bite to eat at Wendy's, then afterwards, Grace & I are in the bathroom, when she finds her keys in her hoodie pocket! Oy vey.

We got to our chalet around 10pm, to find a not-too-happy Amber who had driven herself up, and got there almost 2 hours beforehand. Luckily she was able to get into the one room. We got into our chalet, which was very very nice - we had too suites between 11 of us - each one had 2 double beds & a sofa (plus Neil brought an air mattress that Dan slept on), plus there were 2 bathrooms & a kitchen. Our room included the 5 of us who came in Glen's car, and Dan (since he was Grace's friend & didn't know any of the rest of us, but he was a super-awesome guy!) The people who came from Toronto did a big grocery trip before showing up, so we didn't have to eat out every meal - much cheaper! The others showed up a bit after we did, and we all said our hello's & hung out awhile. Dan had brought a 24 of beer (it was some Imported Dutch Lager) and I saw it sitting on the counter, so I was like "What kind of beer is that?" and Dan's like "it's this Dutch beer. Want one?" and I said "I'm not sure if I really want one" and he's like "oh. B/c I'm dying to have one!" So I had one with him - I couldn't let the poor guy go beer-deprived! We eventually went to bed around 12:30-1am.

I shared one of the double beds with Grace, which was fine. When we crawled into bed, others were still up (since we were on the main floor where the tv & kitchen were, so no sleep yet!) However, b/c I knew it would freak her out, I rolled over towards her, and scared her off. Then tried to play footsies with her under the covers, which she didn't like too much. I didn't mean anything by it, but I knew she would be freaked. Yes I'm evil :P

However, I have a tendency to be a very restless sleeper (or just not sleep much at all) when I'm in a new bed, so I rolled around a lot that night. In doing so, I basically somehow got all the blankets off of Grace! Glen apparently came down for a drink of water around 3am, and saw that I had all the blankets, and pulled them over onto Grace. Then in the morning, he woke us all up, and again, I had all the blankets! Funny thing was that I was wearing my warm flannel pajamas, and Grace was sleeping in a tank top & shorts! LOL. I think she was a little cold all night!

So, Glen woke us up on Saturday morning at 6:45am, since the ski rental place opened at 8am, and we feared that we may not get skis. Got up, ate breakfast, and went to rent our skis. Out on the hill by 9:30am! I hadn't skiied in 9 years (and have only done it twice in my life on a much smaller skihill) and Glen's never skiied before. The rest have skiied many more times!

First challenge for us beginners: the skilift. Glen went ahead of us, but didn't know how to get on, so they ended up having to stop the lift for him! I went on with Neil, and made it on, but apparently I grabbed his arm when going on! Then when we got off, I think I shrieked! LOL!

Neil gave Glen & I an initial lesson on how to turn, and how to get up when we fell (which I think both Glen & I became experts on!) Then we headed down the hill, and I think we set a record for the longest time to go down the bunny hill! Once I got the hang of it, all went well. Fell quite a bit, and it tired me out, but it was fun! I should mention that the other 2 times I've gone skiing, it was in grade 7 & 8 with school, and we were limited to the 3 smallest hills at Chicopee in Kitchener. None of those 3 hills come even close in length to the bunny hill at Blue Mountain! We eventually made it to the bottom, and met up with everyone, and I said I needed a nap. Stan's like "she's tired after only 2 runs already" and I'm like "oh no! That was only one run!" Everyone laughed at me! But when you're not used to it, skiing's hard work, using a lot of muscles that I didn't even know I had!

We did a few runs of that easy hill, then tried to do one of the next level of toughness - AppleBowl, which one of the men at the top (he worked there) told me was a nice run, and I would have no problems. The first part of it was easy, then there was a steep part - about a 60degree slope! EEP! It took a little while for Glen & I to get the guts to go down it, then I went a bit, and fell. And didn't get up for a bit. There were a few of the safety guys that thought I was hurt, then practically yelled at me for being on a hill that was over my level. They went down a bit & said they would watch me, so I started going, and fell again, but this time, in such a position that my one ski was sticking out of the snow, and my ankle was twisted & I couldn't move. Luckily some other nice man came along & helped me get the ski off so I could stand & put it back on. At this point, the safety guys gave up on me & left. Jerks. I made it down the hill very slowly...the steep part was scary, then it got better. And Kevin Br was nice enough to come down with me slowly to ensure I was ok :) Apparently that's what you do when you have new skiiers - you help each other out, so I really appreciated that.

We did another run or two on the easy hill, then headed back to the chalet for some lunch. Oh my goodness - it was so nice to take those ski boots off! I think mine were a little too small, so my feet were killing me. We ate, then some people hit the hills, but I waited for a bit longer. And tried to get my ski boots back on - I think my feet had swollen a bit, so it took me probably about 15-20 minutes to put them on!!! Eventually I got them on, and a few of us headed up. Did a run, then another. I think it was that second one that Amber & I were looking at the map at the top (since we were thinking of trying another one) and there was a bit of a ditch in front of it. I'm standing there, and was drifting forward. Amber's like "watch out!" as I fell into the ditch! It was a little embarrassing, but quite funny! I had to take my skis off in order to get out, so I walk over to the rest of the people & put them on, and Stan asks "Yo! Why are your skis off?" Amber says "We had a little entertainment" and I'm just like "uhh...I fell into the ditch!" They all laughed at me!

We ended up going on the easy hill, and then I took a bit of a break. My legs & feet were so sore, and I was dead tired...skiing takes a lot out of you! I did a few more runs, then the last run, Neil, Dan, Grace & I went on one of the tougher blue hills. It started off alright, then went steep. I'm not afraid of heights, however, I am afraid of falling! Plus I think I was PMS-y, so I did not do too well on this hill - it scared the hell outta me (yes, I'm a wimp!) Dan, who's actually a ski instructor, went down with me slowly, and was actually guiding my skis. And Grace & Neil went slowly, and once again, I felt bad. But all 3 of them are nice enough to tell me that it was ok. We actually weren't down the hill yet when the groomers started coming (we were the last group allowed on the hill before the groomers) so Dan & I were made to go to the side & walk down. I told him to ski down if he wanted, and being a sweetheart, he was like "no, why would I do that?" He was the nicest guy, and I felt bad :S

After that run, we were near the bar on the hill, so we went in for a few drinks. I had 2 Grand Marniers (one bought for me by each Grace & Dan, since I didn't think I'd need money on the hill!) But I bought them drinks later on in the night. We chilled there for awhile, then Dan had his car at the hill, so we got a ride back - thank goodness, I don't think my poor feet could have walked! We went back, met up with everyone, and had dinner, which I think we were all VERY READY for! Some people went for the night skiing, but I definitely didn't.

There was also a hot tub at the chalet, which was open till 10pm every night, so after dinner, around 9pm on Saturday night, a bunch of us headed there. It was an outdoor hot tub, and there was also a pool (heated, so it was probably about 25-30oC!) So we went into the hot tub, then I mentioned going into the pool, and Grace called me nuts, so I did it! And it was a lot warmer than expected – didn’t feel cold, which is impressive after coming out of the hot tub! So we went back & forth. Fun times! Dan brought beer down, then he & Archie got caught drinking it, so they chugged the rest b/c the men wanted to take it away.

After the hot tub, we went back, showered, then Glen, Kevin Br, Dan, Archie, Grace & I went to a club (named "Gel") in the village. It was alright, although small & busy, but I had fun, due to a few rye & cokes beforehand. I was feelin good, but not drunk! Drinks there were expensive, and I had to buy Dan & Grace each one, since they bought me some at the bar in the afternoon. But the club was weird – they were playing normal clubbing dance music, then they suddenly played “Save a Horse, Ride a Cowboy”, then an AC/DC song, then a Michael Jackson song, then back to the club music! It was a fun night! We went back - Glen & Grace dropped off the rest of us, then I guess they went to Tim Horton's, but the rest of us went & crashed. I didn't even hear Grace come to bed (but I let her keep some blankets on top of her that night!)

In the morning, people got up early to hit the hills when they opened at 9am. I was thinking about going, but I had trouble getting out of bed. Then when I stood up, I determined that my legs didn't want to go skiing. So I decided to pass. We had to be out of the room at 11am, so we ate breakfast, got ready & packed up. We finished that by 11:30am, and all 11 of us chilled for a bit in the lounge-y area near the hill, and had a bit of lunch (ok, it wasn't much after my breakfast, but other people wanted to eat so they could ski for the rest of the afternoon!) 7 out of 11 people went skiing, and Glen decided just to chill in the lounge (where he later fell asleep) So Kevin Br, Grace & I wandered around the village, which is just near the hill and has a bunch of little stores & restaurants - it was also where the club was from the night before. It was fun - there was this super-big chair, so we got this man to take pictures of us. He was so nice & patient, especially since he was carrying a 3-year-old boy. The little boy was so cute - he was well behaved, but his dad asked him "are you going to help me take some pictures?" and the boy said, very bluntly, "no." LOL. There was also the Blue Mountain Bear & Princess walking around, and the bear gave me a big hug, and Grace & I took pictures with them! I felt like I was 5 again! :D

We went into a few shops and looked around. There was a maple shop, which advertised "Maple Taffy on Snow." Basically the woman had this maple taffy boiling on the stove, then when you asked for some, she took the hot liquid outside to where she had a large shallow rectangular pot of snow, where she poured a strip of the taffy, let it harden a bit, then twirled it around a tongue depressor. It was SO GOOD, but very very sweet! The 3 of us split one, and that was enough for Kevin & I!

At 2pm, Dan said he would meet us at Starbucks for a coffee, so we did that for awhile. Afterwards, Grace wanted more taffy, so she talked Dan into splitting one, so they did. However, Dan couldn't finish his half (the lady split their's into 2 sticks) so I ended up finishing it. Too much taffy - so sweet! Dan went back skiing, and we walked back along the hill, where I took several pictures of the hill & people skiing/snowboarding. One funny occurrence - Kevin was wearing his Waterloo Engineering jacket, and we walk by these 2 guys just lying on the snow, and the one yells "Woo Waterloo!" and I'm like "yea!" and he's like "Water! Water! Water!" And we don't respond. But we laughed at the randomness! Then we went back to the lodge where Glen was, and waited for people to finish skiing (since their day passes only went till 4:30pm) People started gathering, and we got our skis organized, and took them back to the ski rental shop. Afterwards, headed to the Village where we all wanted to get Beaver Tails. We did, went inside of Starbucks to eat them & some last bit of chat. They were SO DAMN GOOD (as beavertails usually are!) We then all said our good-byes, and headed in our respective vehicles. It was the end of a fantastic weekend. Ok, maybe not quite the end, since we still had a few hours of driving, but you understand what I mean!

However, the drive home turned out to be much longer than expected. We got on the road around 5:15pm, and I should have been back in Sarnia by 9:30-10pm, but we had a few issues getting home. Basically involving Archie directing us in the not-as-direct route. Then we had to find highway 12, but couldn’t, so a few people thought Road 12 (just past Arthur) was the one we wanted, but that was a county road, so we went to turn around, and ended up in the ditch! Got out about 15 minutes later! Then we went back to Arthur to ask at Tim Horton’s about how to get home, and changed our route – so we headed towards Fergus, then were going to catch highway 18, which goes right into Waterloo. So, Kevin’s map was not great, and apparently hwy 18 comes into Fergus, then joins up with the road we were on (I think hwy 22 or something like that?) and then goes the other way to Orangeville. However, some of this detail (ie when 18 meets up with 22) was under the dot on the map! And, Fergus was missing some road signs, so we missed 18 to Waterloo, and went on the only road that said hwy 18, then 30 minutes later, we were in Orangeville! There were 5 very frustrated people in the car!! Plus having 3 of us in the backseat of a Civic was a little squishy :S By the time we got back to Waterloo, dropped the 3 of them off, used the bathroom at Kevin’s place, etc, we left there just after 9:30. Made good time to London, then I moved my stuff to my car, got gas (it’s cheap in London – I paid about 78.3c/L!) and was on my way. Made good timing to Sarnia (then again, I was going about 130-140kph most of the way!) Got home at 11:45pm, and after showering/unpacking/email checking/making lunch for Monday, got to bed around 12:45am. I tell ya, 6:15am came really really early on Monday :S But it was worth such a great weekend!

Stupid little Sarnia kids!

I'm a little fed up with kids at the Y here in Sarnia. I pay for a membership, and I swipe my card in order to get in. Then I swipe to go up to the gym, or to the members only changeroom. However, I don't need to swipe to leave. It's one of those small things that you can push one way, but not the other, however, you can easily get in the out door. Which is what a lot of kids do - then they go into the gymnasium part to play basketball. Firstly, I'm a little annoyed at the staff there that none of these kids are ever stopped, since the entrance is right beside the desk.

This past Monday, Ally, Warren, Gil & I went to play badminton in the gym, since it was badminton time. So we took up half the court, and the other half was open gym, where a lot of people were playing basketball. So, we were happily playing badminton on our half, and there were the small nets behind us at each end. And some of these kids decide to go & play basketball behind where Ally & Warren were playing on their side. WTF??? Can you NOT SEE that we're playing there??? They just didn't care - no respect for us at all. And they were annoying, and basketballs hurt a lot more than birdies. I tried to hit the birdie hard into them, so that they would hopefully leave, but every time I tried, I did even worse (the first time, I hit into the net, then I hit like 2 feet, etc)

And tonight, I was doing an Aquafit class. We've got our part of the pool during that time, when some kid comes & just jumps in, splashing us all. It didn't bother me much, but some of the other people were annoyed. I was just disgusted by the inconsideration! Then there were other kids in other parts of the pool that were just loud & obnoxious.

Maybe I'm just getting too old, and these things are retarded.

Tuesday, February 14, 2006

Single & Sexy on Valentine's Day

Valentine's Day. Whoopdie friggin doo.

I think the entire idea of V-Day is retarded. It's such a Hallmark holiday for people to make money, and why do you need a specific day just to do something with your loved one? Yes, maybe I'm a little bitter about being single today, and maybe I would care a bit more about V-Day if I was in a relationship. Although 3 years ago, when I was, I still thought it to be silly. Sure, we did go to dinner & a movie that night, which we may not have done if it hadn't been V-Day, but other than that, it wasn't such a big deal.

I hate the fact that Hallmark & other card companies make so much money selling cards. And cards aren't cheap either - anywhere from $3-5 for a card seems crazy! And chocolate companies - V-day chocolate is out right after Christmas, so they don't just make money off the chocolate that's given for Valentine's, but they also make money off the chocolate sold for the last month & a half for anyone who just wants chocolate!! Although I will admit, I do enjoy the cheap chocolate that's sold after today!

So yes, I do hate the idea of Valentine's Day. And yet, at the same time, I do kind of wish I was in a relationship & had someone to share today with. It feels like a rub-it-into-the-single-people's type of day as well. I don't care a huge amount that I'm single (although I do care a bit) and I didn't think I'd be affected much (which I'm not, but a little bit) Oh well. There's always that cheap chocolate tomorrow! :P

Friday, February 10, 2006

Website for y'all!

I know that some of you who read this might find this interesting (namely Sophie, Matt & Lou) I discovered this website a few years ago, when friends told me about it - www.everything2.com. Some of you may have heard of it, but it's just a bunch of articles that people write, but you can find articles about ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING!! And they all have links at the bottom to a bunch of other articles. Seriously...you can spend hours reading on here and not realize it. Just another way for you all to waste time at work...umm, er, read interesting things.

Thursday, February 09, 2006

Might as well jump, JUMP! Go ahead and jump!

G'evening Cyberspace!

Here I sit on Thursday evening of my 5th out of 16 weeks of work. Wondering where the last 5 weeks have gone, yet at the same time, wondering why this week felt longer. And yet, it didn't really - some of the days were just long feeling.

Lou brought this up in her blog, that when you get into a routine, time just flies by. The evenings go fast - I get home around 4:30pm, go on the computer for awhile, go to the gym, make dinner, sometimes play guitar, shower, make lunch, and add in more internet in there! I normally go to bed around 11:30pm during work terms, and a lot of days, I'm super-tired, and say I'm going to go to sleep earlier, but it never happens. 11pm creeps up on me, and I realize I need to make lunch/get ready for bed/end convos on MSN. And I normally like to read before bed, but normally can't read more than a few pages before I'm falling asleep on the pillow. In fact, I thought I would read more this term, but that's not happening as much as I'd like. Or maybe it's just b/c while the book I'm reading is good, it's not one that I seem to have gotten really into yet, so it's taking me a long time to read :S

However, this book that I am reading, "Microserfs," had a good, memorable quote in it. I can't find the exact quote, but it was something like "Time is like money, you never think about it unless you don't have it." So true.

Time definitely has flown in university. I still can't believe I'm going into 4A in May! FOURTH YEAR! I never knew if I would make it this far! And in a year, I'll be almost ready for my IRS. Wow! Then I'll graduate, and all the friends I've made, I'm sure I'll lose touch with a number of them. Which is sad. And what will I do after graduation?? I don't know what I want to do yet!

Well kids, I'm off to go skiing at Blue Mountain this weekend. I've only skiied twice in my life, and those were in grades 7 & 8. So wish me luck in not breaking my leg! Have a good weekend everyone!

Tuesday, February 07, 2006

Environmental Rant

I know I've mentioned part of this before, but one thing that really bugs me about my work place (and possibly other places do this as well) is that while they do their best to make the process as environmentally friendly as possible, and try to give off as pollution as possible, they are horrible in that way in the office. The janitors change EVERY SINGLE GARBAGE BAG ever day! Even if there's just a small apple core or something in it - change the whole bag! That's a shitload of extra plastic that need not be added to the landfills, but is!

So what do I do? I walk 5 feet, and put my garbage into my neighbour's can. I figure, I'm here for 16 weeks, and I didn't figure out they changed it every day till the second week, so for 15 weeks, 5 days per week...that's 75 garbage bags that I'm saving from going into the landfill! Compared to the rest of the plant, that's not that big a percentage, but it's still a significant number! I just wish more people would realize this, or better yet, garbage bags be emptied only once per week!

Now, this same neighbour is LAZY. And throws all his pop cans & bottles in the garbage all the time, which really annoys me! I said something, and he just shrugged it off. Then one time, we were talking to the janitor (b/c I told her about my throwing garbage into his can, to save a few bags) And he made some comment like "I'm going to be a chemical engineer, so I'm going to ruin the environment anyway." WTF??? First off, while chemical engineers do design processes, a lot of the designing tries to make things as environmentally friendly as possible. Plus, he was originally going to go for an environmental option, but now that he's not, he apparently doesn't need to worry about it. Such ignorance with stuff like this really pisses me off!

While I'm on this rant, one other thing. I went to the gym last night - there are 2 gyms that I can go to with my membership, and we went to the other one for the first time. With both gyms, they want you to clean off the equipment when you're done - makes sense, you don't want a stranger's sweat on the machine you're about to use! So the gym that I normally go to has actual towels that can be washed and re-used. Whereas the gym I went to yesterday had paper towels, which is such a waste. :S

Saturday, February 04, 2006

Mixed mood again tonight. Work today was ok, drove back to Waterloo, went to FASS tonight. I thought FASS was awesome, and it was cool b/c I saw quite a few people there that I haven't seen for awhile! And I ran into Mark beforehand, since he's apparently now working in a lab on campus (very confused about this) However, Mark & I are going to go out for coffee or bubble tea tomorrow afternoon I think :)

However, now I sit, and remember one year ago. It was around this time that Pat died, however I didn't find out till early morning. This has been on my mind a lot all week at work. But today, my mind was replaying the phone call telling me I had to get medication b/c Pat was sick, then going to the nurse and her telling me that Pat had passed, then having to tell a few closer friends, then having to break the news to our class. Still brings tears. Even though people have told me that I should celebrate life, it's hard. Yet I know that a lot of us find her death more tragic than she would.

Similarly, while I was thinking about this at work this morning, I also found myself missing a lot of people. Some people A LOT. I miss my university friends, and some high school friends, but they're not that far. Moreso, I miss my brother/sister/brother-in-law/sister-in-law, who are all far. And I find myself missing my friend Greg - he was a uni friend, but graduated last year, and is at home in Vancouver. He's a good friend, although wasn't one of those best friends that I saw on a regular basis, but I really enjoyed his company when he was around. I occasionally talk to him on MSN, but not often.

This is one of my problems though - I want to travel at the end of August. I was planning on going West b/c I'd never been there (and this would allow me to see Greg in Vancouver, and likely Paul & other people who are also there) However, I'd also like to go to New Hampshire to visit my sister/brother-in-law/nephew. However, I think some friends are also planning a road trip down to Mexico, which would be great fun! And I'd also like to go to Europe, on one of those bus tours with Contiki that my ex-roommate Lucas, as well as Lou, went on this past summer. I know I have time still, but decisions! I guess I wait to see my money situation, although I'm thinking one of the first 3 is more likely (b/c I think that the people involved take higher priority!)

On that note, it's 2:50am...time for bed.

Thursday, February 02, 2006

You spin me right round baby right round...

...like a record baby, right round round round!

Hello Cyberspace!

This update is for you Sophie! ;) (but for everyone to read!)

I'm in a pretty good mood tonight. It's Thursday, which means tomorrow's Friday! And I'm going back to Waterloo tomorrow for FASS, which a few of my friends are in :)

Here's the story from Amanda's party last weekend, which was great times:

I got there around 7pm, and we pre-drank. She had made 117 Jello shooters, and between about 15 of us, we consumed about 102 of them. The night before, I was also there, and we made pudding shooters. Now, before you go "eww," let me tell you: they were EXCELLENT! Basically, it called for one package of pudding mix, 1/4 cup of vodka, 3/4 cup milk, some whipped cream, and 1/2 cup of some other type of alcohol. So we made chocolate pudding with Bailey's, chocolate pudding with creme de menthe, vanilla pudding with Dooley's (which is a toffee liquor) and vanilla pudding with raspberry liquor. And then put them into 2oz cups, and some were straight one kind, and some had a mix. But we had so much fun making them, and they were SO GOOD!! :D So a lot of those were consumed, and a lot of other types of alcohol were consumed (I should mentioned that those 102 jello shooters were consumed both before & after we went out) There were about 15 of us, and we got to the Stampede Corral, which is a country bar/club. I'm not usually a fan of country music, but I had a kickass time! Well, once we got in - the lineup was NUTS! We waited probably an hour & a half, and this was getting there around 9pm! And the place wasn't that full either. Some of the guys brought a bunch of Jello shooters with them for in line, and the waiting wasn't too bad, until the end, when it felt long. But it was kinda fun before that. So we were there, we chatted, we danced, we drank, etc. Then we went back to Amanda's place, and partied some more! We played drinking Jenga, then shot glass Checkers. I was on a team for Checkers with Amanda & Amanda, so I didn't have to drink them all, but they filled up 2 extra shot glasses at the beginning, so I took those before we started! We were playing with Butter Shots, which were ok at the beginning, but then after you have a lot, they're just sweet. So we partied it up for awhile, then people started getting tired, so we went to bed around 5-5:30am. Amanda has a fairly big bed in her room, so it was going to be her, myself, Lance & Glen on it, but Glen didn't want to share, so Amanda didn't want to make him sleep on the floor alone, so they slept there. So it was just Lance & I. He was a pretty fun guy, but completely wasted. He passed out pretty quick. But while he slept, he kept moving closer to me...LOL. I slept like shit that night - I'm not good at sleeping in a strange place, nor with other people in a bed, and it was hot, and I just didn't feel tired. So I barely slept, and didn't get to bed any earlier Sunday night, so Monday at work was horrible. But well worth the awesome time! We got up around 11:15am, and I helped Amanda make breakfast for everyone - we had homemade waffles, french toast (made with homemade cinnamon nut bread), bacon, and fruit. YUMMY! Afterwards, those of us that were left did dishes/cleaned up...it was the least we could do! Amanda was an awesome hostess, and it was a fantastic time!

I'm really enjoying the gym - I went 3 times this week, well, including tonight when I had an appointment. Julie (the one trainer) showed me around the equipment & set up a program for me. So hopefully I can keep myself going, and get in shape this term! I'm glad I joined though - something to do, and it feels good to work out! I hope I can keep it up when I go back to school in May.

I think I'm a foodaholic. I really like to eat, and eat a lot throughout the day when I'm at work. Plus I seem to spend a lot at the grocery store - today I went in intending to buy only wings & garlic bread (for Superbowl) and sour cream. But I ended up buying other stuff too (although I probably would have bought it eventually, but maybe not everything was "necessary") Oh well. I do eat fairly healthy though - most of my snacks throughout the day are fruit or veggies. Like today, I had 5 servings of fruit (plus a glass of orange juice this morning!) And I drank more water today than I normally do.

However, in addition to my foodaholism, I enjoy cooking, as many of you know. And I find it funny when a lot of the time, I (the student) have much better lunches than a lot of the guys at work! And I rarely eat frozen dinners/food...I ate my first this term this past week (when I was really lazy) and it was a Pizza Pop. I just like my own cooking better!

Work's improving. I finally got some non-mind-numbing work to do :) My supervisor is heading to Utah skiing next week, so he's leaving me quite a bit to do!

So, today is Groundhog Day. Wiarton Willie (the Canadian one) did not see his shadow, which means that winter is soon over & spring is just around the corner. My question is: WHEN DID WINTER START?? LOL.

Well, I better finish packing up for the weekend. Take care all, and maybe I'll update again sometime. I just don't feel the motivation, or have anything *too* exciting to say lately. But I'll try.

<3 Jill