Mixed mood again tonight. Work today was ok, drove back to Waterloo, went to FASS tonight. I thought FASS was awesome, and it was cool b/c I saw quite a few people there that I haven't seen for awhile! And I ran into Mark beforehand, since he's apparently now working in a lab on campus (very confused about this) However, Mark & I are going to go out for coffee or bubble tea tomorrow afternoon I think :)
However, now I sit, and remember one year ago. It was around this time that Pat died, however I didn't find out till early morning. This has been on my mind a lot all week at work. But today, my mind was replaying the phone call telling me I had to get medication b/c Pat was sick, then going to the nurse and her telling me that Pat had passed, then having to tell a few closer friends, then having to break the news to our class. Still brings tears. Even though people have told me that I should celebrate life, it's hard. Yet I know that a lot of us find her death more tragic than she would.
Similarly, while I was thinking about this at work this morning, I also found myself missing a lot of people. Some people A LOT. I miss my university friends, and some high school friends, but they're not that far. Moreso, I miss my brother/sister/brother-in-law/sister-in-law, who are all far. And I find myself missing my friend Greg - he was a uni friend, but graduated last year, and is at home in Vancouver. He's a good friend, although wasn't one of those best friends that I saw on a regular basis, but I really enjoyed his company when he was around. I occasionally talk to him on MSN, but not often.
This is one of my problems though - I want to travel at the end of August. I was planning on going West b/c I'd never been there (and this would allow me to see Greg in Vancouver, and likely Paul & other people who are also there) However, I'd also like to go to New Hampshire to visit my sister/brother-in-law/nephew. However, I think some friends are also planning a road trip down to Mexico, which would be great fun! And I'd also like to go to Europe, on one of those bus tours with Contiki that my ex-roommate Lucas, as well as Lou, went on this past summer. I know I have time still, but decisions! I guess I wait to see my money situation, although I'm thinking one of the first 3 is more likely (b/c I think that the people involved take higher priority!)
On that note, it's 2:50am...time for bed.
However, now I sit, and remember one year ago. It was around this time that Pat died, however I didn't find out till early morning. This has been on my mind a lot all week at work. But today, my mind was replaying the phone call telling me I had to get medication b/c Pat was sick, then going to the nurse and her telling me that Pat had passed, then having to tell a few closer friends, then having to break the news to our class. Still brings tears. Even though people have told me that I should celebrate life, it's hard. Yet I know that a lot of us find her death more tragic than she would.
Similarly, while I was thinking about this at work this morning, I also found myself missing a lot of people. Some people A LOT. I miss my university friends, and some high school friends, but they're not that far. Moreso, I miss my brother/sister/brother-in-law/sister-in-law, who are all far. And I find myself missing my friend Greg - he was a uni friend, but graduated last year, and is at home in Vancouver. He's a good friend, although wasn't one of those best friends that I saw on a regular basis, but I really enjoyed his company when he was around. I occasionally talk to him on MSN, but not often.
This is one of my problems though - I want to travel at the end of August. I was planning on going West b/c I'd never been there (and this would allow me to see Greg in Vancouver, and likely Paul & other people who are also there) However, I'd also like to go to New Hampshire to visit my sister/brother-in-law/nephew. However, I think some friends are also planning a road trip down to Mexico, which would be great fun! And I'd also like to go to Europe, on one of those bus tours with Contiki that my ex-roommate Lucas, as well as Lou, went on this past summer. I know I have time still, but decisions! I guess I wait to see my money situation, although I'm thinking one of the first 3 is more likely (b/c I think that the people involved take higher priority!)
On that note, it's 2:50am...time for bed.
posted by Jill at
12:51:00 a.m.
3 Comments:
jill,
glad you had a good weekend. Hope one of your travel plans work out. I'd lvoe to go out West if that's still in the works
have a good week!
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Anonymous, at 7:17 p.m.
If you miss people so much you should come up to Toronto. You know you can crash at my place...
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Anonymous, at 7:25 a.m.
Jill-do,
I love your blog. I am glad you are doing well. I just added you to my blog space. Take care and know you are in my thoughts. :o)
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C-Dub :o), at 10:24 p.m.
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